Blur as usual

MWHAHAHAHAHA....

I'm so SORRY, Uncle Kah Wee aka Uncle Kiwi!! I don't know where on earth I got the impression that -k- is Kapil. oopss... hope you don't mind. *Lil Ariel sent a flying kiss to you.* at least it shows that I'm still me right?

many thanks to my friends who had been encouraging me via the chatbox, smses and Facebook. sorry to make you guys worry. I'm feeling better now. I'll perservere for Lil Ariel's sake. :D

Daddy Sam also assured me that things are and will be alright. btw he thinks that I copied the texts in my previous post from somewhere. duhz...

weekend is coming!! enjoy oh!!

oh yes, Lil Ariel's real Uncle John is coming over to see her in the evening. awww... when was the last time I saw him?? hmmm...

and Angelina YiYi stole a picture of Lil Ariel from my Friendster and did something to it!!

this one is with blusher... aww...

so I asked Angelina YiYi to help me redesign the header. and she came out with 4. all so nice, don't know how to choose. so I decided to rotate them every month. Muackz Muackz!!

Just a tip of the ice-berg

I'm drained. I'm tired.

I'm drained of worrying why she is not gaining weight fast. whenever I see other chubby babies of her age, I envy. I know all babies are unique and different. but still I wish... I dread bringing her for check-ups.

I'm tired of coaxing her to drink formula milk. everytime I was hoping for miracle that she'll be able to finish her bottle milk without fussing, crying; only to find disappointment over and over again. whenever I see other babies finishing they milk quietly, I envy. I should not compare, but still... who can comprehend my disappointment?

insensitive comments at the wrong time can drive a person insane, stir up suppressed emotions. they're catalysts to an overdue break down.

I tried, but I guess I'm just not good enough...

2nd last jab

brought Lil Ariel for her last 6-in-1 jab and rotavirus vaccination on saturday. Dr Chan gave the green light for giving Lil Ariel solid food, like porridge, cereal etc. so excited, I can make REAL food for her le. hopefully she can gain more weight this way.

so we went to get a set of utensils for her food. cooked plain porridge for her that day and she seems to like it. *keeping my fingers crossed* the next day we cooked cod fish porridge for her. if she's cleared of the allergy monitoring test, I'm going to introduce sweet potato!! :D

THANK YOU Auntie Ah Yen, Grandma Lala and Uncle Kapil for asking about Lil Ariel. she's fine le. *Thank God*

Uncle Kapil: I place her on our bed, so no barricades. I did put pillows and bolsters around her, but I don't know how she by-passed them and ended up on the floor. :-/ yeah, she inherited the clumsiness. hehe

Ariel fell off

from the bed yesterday!! heart pain again.

she was having her usual afternoon nap on our bed when she gave a sudden loud shrill. when I dashed into the room, I found the bed empty and she was lying one the floor crying. I will remember that helpless look on her. I quickly picked her up and calm her down.

then I gave Daddy Sam a call and we decided to bring her to Mt. A.

the doctor did a general check on her head and other body parts and found no obvious injury. he said she need not have an x-ray as she was very active. however, on the safe side we requested for a x-ray to be done.

thank God that there wasn't any fractures or blood clots, but still got to monitor her for any unusual behavior for the next 24 hours.

btw, her x-ray images reminded me of the ultrascans of her when she was still in my tummy. how big she has grown from that time. aww...

oh yes, please pray for me that she'll be fine.

Poor Lil Ariel

had her first hit on her head against the floor yesterday.

*actually she hit her head against other places before, e.g my protruding teeth, chin, shoulder etc.

she was crawling happily out of the mat. before I can pull her back to the mat, she rolled over and hit her head against the floor. the poor gal wailed so hard that my heart broke. BUT she went smiling away when I carried her. she's becoming more and more mobile/ Daddy Sam and I have to be extra watchful over her. even when she's sitting in the bumbo chair, she'll use her arms to try to push herself up and out.

well, other than hitting her head, she choked on her milk when I was bottle-feeding her. my heart broke the 2nd time on the same day when I saw the milk (with some mucus) came out of her tiny nostril. we adult will feel damn uncomfortable when the liquid we drank come out of our nose. Lil Ariel must had felt terrible, if not she won't be crying so hard when that happpen. LOUSY MUMMY!!!