little things that Lil Darling does...

pretending to be a good girl. sleep without coaxing. then get up and run to elsewhere in less than 5 secs...

giving a cheeky grin...


attempting to take a photo...

pasting stickers on her Mummy's agenda... luckily I did not use the refills from LV...

we were at church early. Daddy Sam was entertaining Lil Ariel and I managed to take this shot of them looking at each other... tenderly? mwhahaha


this girl is a real vainpot. she insisted to put on the necklace and my watch. she was looking down when I wanted to take a picture of her. so I told her, "Ariel, look up". so she really look up... at the ceiling. '''-_- pardon me the messy room. it's a "one-room" flat till our flat is ready. hoho...


at night, again she wanted to put on the necklace when she saw it. this time she wanted me to tie her hair up when she saw mine being tied up.


the back view...

Daddy is still sick...

we did not go Sentosa yesterday cuz Daddy Sam is still sick. the ulcers in his mouth were hurting him so much that he banged the table while having his dinner. I wanted to look after him so much, but he keep pushing me away so that I can look after Lil Ariel. so I left the care to my mil. don't know whether will she thinks that I'm a bad wife who don't look after her sick husband. sighz...

anyway Daddy Sam suggested that he send me to Sentosa then he come home a rest. Lil Ariel and I will not be able to enjoy ourselves if he is not around. so I messaged Sabina that we will not be able make it. pray that Daddy Sam will recover soon.

Lil Ariel was quite co-operative. She ate her lunch and dinner (with some fussing), played her toys happily. in the afternoon, she had a slight diarrhea. thank God that she recovered at night. I missed the days where just the 2 of us, Lil Ariel and I spend the whole day together. can't wait for our flat to come soon. :D

Going Sentosa tomorrow!!

we got an invitation to Lil Germaine's 3-year old birthday party at Sentosa tomorrow! though it's not the first time we are bringing Lil Ariel there. I can't help but feeling excited. pray pray pray that Daddy Sam and Lil Ariel will be up for it (the weather too...). if not the bikini I bought for her will have to be kept in the drawer for a while le. yeah!! I bought a bikini for her. thanks Yen, Ling and silly Wang for accompanying me to look for it during lunch ya. it is a cute 2-piece orange swim wear. will post the photos up if she managed to wear it. I also bought a sweet Strawberry Shortcake towel. I just love spending on this sweet little bugger.

went to buy some more stuff like sunblock, first-aid kit (hopefully I will not need it), her favorite Gerber sweets and a plastic pouch today. tonight going to pack all the things in.

this morning I called up the HR department hoping that there are still some left-over Sentosa passes for this week (I'm supposed to book it 1 month in advance). the lady at the other end of the line said there are after checking. she proceeded to ask me how many do I need. I said one. haha.. she was shocked. her reply, "har, you are going to Sentosa alone?" of course, I told her that my hubby got his own. then after taking down my particulars, she said, "oh, Samuel got the corporate card too." yeah Daddy Sam, Patma still remembers you. :D

anyway this year I got ready Lil Germaine's present. last year I was not able to get as I was grounded at home with Lil Ariel. then during the weekends, shopping with Daddy Sam and Lil Ariel is almost impossible. one is too impatient and the other too troublesome for me to carry and shop at the same time. (oops, Ariel, if you ever read this, please don't dump me in Orange Valley okay?)

:D

Trial Times

a lot of things happen during these few weeks. worries, anxieties all came for a visit at the same time. I guess they need each other's company.

the first one. Daddy Sam complained that he was having chest pains since one of the Fridays till the next day. he has got childhood asthma. so I reminded him if it is an asthma attack. he has not been having asthma attacks for a long time, so he said he cannot remember. to be safe, we decided to go to the A&E at AH. after some tests and an x-ray, the doctor informed us that he had a pneumothorax. in layman terms, basically there is a hole in the lung that is caused by a blister that had burst. thus the air in the lung escaped and trapped in between the chest and the lung. the trapped escaped air is called pneumothorax. this is more prevailing in tall and skinny males in their 20s to 40s. he fits that category perfectly.

I was worried sick. I messaged my MIL about that and asked her to help to look after Ariel. thank God for my MIL, that I do need to worry about Ariel. I waited with him at the hospital to get the trapped air out and inflate the lung again. he did not wish to stay there overnight. so we went home at 9 pm plus (we were there since 3pm). The next day we went back for make sure that the pneumothorax did not grow in size. I thank God again for that. I know that this is His working to make Daddy Sam realise how important it is to stay healthy. he is willing to finish his dinners and start to eat breakfasts as well.

the second one. Ariel's turn to not feel well a week after the first incident. she was having low-grade fever for 4 days. super cranky and sticky to my MIL. refused to eat. in normal times, we already have problem feeding her. we suspected a lot of things, from teething to fake measles to the lump of dunno-what on her tongue. we brought her to see the NUH children emergency on Sunday after I saw the lump of dunno-what. the doctor did a check and found that there are some ulcers at the back of the throat. she does not have any blisters on her hands and feet. so the doctor ruled out HFMD. moreover she is not in any child-care centres, it's quite impossible to catch that.

I was really worried and it does not make me feel any better when she wants my MIL instead of me. she did not even want me to carry her. I understand that she will stick to my MIL because she is the main care-giver and at least she sticks to her, someone related by blood. I still feel a tinge of sadness when she stretched out her arms for her when I was carrying her and willingly gave her a peck on the cheek without prompting when she rejected my request for it. I was the one who carried her for 9 months. I was the one who went to through the labour pains. I was the one who endured the pains after the labour when the effects of the epidural wore off.

AND in addition to that Daddy Sam had a fever of 39.4 degree on Monday when he came back from work. my heart just sank. I was at the verge of breaking down. but I can't. I asked God what did I do that all these things happen. is it something that I did that He put the suffering on my loved ones? I prayed and searched for answer. It's a trial to make my faith stronger, and now I realised how He felt when His children whom He loved so dearly turned away from him; when I turned away from Him.

Daddy Sam's fever went away, Lil Ariel going back to her normal self (and even started to drink her most hated formula milk) when I told Him that I will trust Him whole-heartedly.

my faith in Him has grown stronger. and I pray that it will continue to grow.